If you fail, fail as fast as you can =D

This is an inspiring article

By:Daegan Smith http://www.redsofts.com/articles/read/423/27028/If_You_Fail_Fail_as_Fast_as_You_Can.html *direct link

Long story short, just click and read =D

Yes, I failed a lot. In fact, I keep telling myself that I am awesome (which is really true and always has been ;) to cover up my failure... shhhshhh... dun tell me -_- bla bla bla lalallala can't see ~~~~

There is no success without failure right?
The pursuit for perfection is an endless journey... Even Jeff Bridges,  Kevin Flynn from Tron Legacy oso said so <3

HAWT !!!!!

Hey sis, if you are reading this, stop drooling ;)

After my bro sank my boat... which is quite small and comfy, I really got lost.... Hey dude, if you are reading this... thanks a lot and you are not in any better position to judge and hey dad, fyi, there is no unit to measure success  ;D

What is a Mechatronics Engineer and what does he/her does? gosh... I really don't know... Seriously I got lost -_- geez thanks bro... In the brochure I got before enrolling one of the future job candidates suggested is photocopier... wth is that? TBR photocopy boy? ... ? ... ? 

Luckily, I found myself quite talented in copying... reports LOL nuff screwing around... -_-

Heard from some source, in Malaysia, Mechatronics is not a common practice due to... ahem... but in other countries, this field is very hawt... There are 2 paths to choose after graduation, Technical or Management....

Met my boss today, he brief us... I do not think it counts as a briefing, it is more like a looong discussion. I felt very sorry for burning his time >< It is about our project... it is not going well... okay I admit... the culprit is laziness XD

He said there are 8 fields that a normal Mechatronics Engineer should possess... 

worth a thousand words or more right ?

Frankly, after 2 bloody years of Mechatronics, I am exposed to almost all the component above (except Control System) and I can tell you 1 thing, I am not good in any of these areas... I am taking Solid Works training class this year and I am doing quite well in C++, maybe I will just focus on these 2 areas? A mechanical designer who knows C++, not bad right?  -_-  at least, sounds better than photocopy boy, neh ?

Who knows what lies beyond... I ain't any brave explorer... I just sit there and wait the tide to change ~.~

Best of luck to all my course mate, god bless us all and may my awesomeness be with you ^^

To end this post

EFF YOU !!!!!!

I AM NOT GOING TO BE ADDICTED... AGAIN !!!!!!

o0o O.O o0o

2011 come come !!!

I hope you wear your oven glove cause this is going to be a freakingly HOT year !!!

There are a lot to be done, first thing of cause, I am going to finish up the Stereovision research project. The process ain't so appealing. Fortunately, this is a rabbit year, unlike tiger which doesn't like me.... I trust my manager and we will be rocking it like a wooden horse ^^

Yes, I am mechanically weak... I sucks at drawing or designing mechanical stuff... ask my hubby Kenny, casket car + imba chicken hair blower... Damn... I miss the old days... We are going to be Solid Works buddy and special thanks to Ms. Angel for spending time clarifying the SW course stuff.. 

The next big thing is... my mum always complains about paying a lot for ma piano class... Felt really sorry ><

*fyi, I slack a lot and lazy....

At least this year, I got to finish my stupid grade8 theory... the stupid diploma practical... well... let's leave it and see how it goes shall we? ^^

I know, it is easier said than done... I think I will be spending all my extra free time doing theory this year... so.. no more "him ling" with you guys... sorry dudes....

Ya... DUDES... no girl... you happy? hope next year will have leng leng freshies XD

Industrial Training... gosh.... I am speechless when it comes to this... well.. good luck =D

That's a wrap... Again, this year will be...

Let bygones be bygones

Idiom of  the year... Many "things" happened to me this year, most of them sucks but I like it. You know me, I love things when they blew up or not working. After finishing so many PHAILED product, what do you expect? I had became a work addict, those who are in a team with me should know well, I drive them crazy XD... Never look back is what I do, I do not give a shit to my past, I just keep looking forward.

I had lost someone almost important to me but luckily I have found true love this year.... 

He is handsome, charming, caring, ambitious and awesome... wth... I just described myself !! ??!!  

Just finished playing the 101 piano songs book... Had to admit the last few songs are a bit rushy, too hungry and inpatient... Next year will be a turning point and I am here to curse it. I love challenges and bad luck. I ain't a big believer of luck and charm or bla bla bla stuff, I only believe in one thing and it is ma AWESOMEness. I truly believe that ma awesomeness can radiates through the harbor and shines light where it is pitch dark. 

*If you feel like throwing up, it is normal, most of them do after reading my blog =D

Moreover, I had also completed my final PIC programming... stupid ADC potentiometer controlled LED blinking thingy... This is the first tiny step of the next big thing. I had successfully compiled it but haven't burn it into the chip... I do not want to face reality too soon and spoil my new year eve's mood =S ... for now, just assume it is perfect ^^

New Year's resolution? I keep telling Nazzy my resolution....

!!!!! haha.... Too much One Piece =x

Reality: I do not have any resolutions... yet... 船到桥头自然直 <3

Kinda miss my flower... had nobody to sms with... 

Flower when r chiuu coming back? =(

This shitty year is gonna end soon... Here I wish/hope you a Happy New Year =D

*oopx almost forgot to upload some new year picture.....

*okay okay okay... here is a proper one...

Love you guys =D hope you enjoy my last post of year 2010 ~<3

8 Batang 2D2N Trip

Went Malacca and Seremban for 2 days and 2 night. The whole trip itself is a tragedy. All 8 dudes went out, without any girls, how sad is that? There is no more other comments about the trip cause I do not want to got raped by the organizer when school starts =x I am happy that we could do something together.

I changed a lot, I am not a easily influenced person but I really got influenced by someone I knew recently. Maybe his/her attitude hits a resonance and opened up my inner personality which locks deep inside of my soul. I finally felt free to do whatever I like w/o caring for others. It's just like being an invisible man without any secrets or walking naked along the beach XD

I do not see the point of doing pointless things cause there is no point in doing so. Got it? I will stuck my middle finger to you if you ever force me ^^

We went there by bus and it was a mere 1 hour mini journey. I do get impatient of waiting inside the bus. Gosh it is boring. People tend to think a lot during journeys like this. I have been thinking, she every week sit bus and come KL meet up with me, sure it is really frustrating and boring. I felt a little pity for her and should had forgiven her. If only she could true to herself from the start and told me everything. Well, forget it, what she did is really overboard and please... do not look back again.

I really had fun, not about the trip but about spending time with you guys. Really thank you a lot for sharing this 2 years and the other 2 years to come. 

My Dirty Little Secrets ~.~

There is always something, kept within me, never spoken or told. That something is my little secret, in fact, I have a lot... It is promises I made nor it is scandalous.. It is just the way I look at stuff. There is always a name list in everyone's heart, and there is always a marker to mark in who is blacklisted or who is in the higher rank. This is very true. I do not talk to people around me or correct them is because I do not want to hurt them, not because I cared bout them, I just do not want him/her to face the reality. And because I am selfish XD

My life is built on rivalry and it kept me going for years. Telling a few white lies would not hurt right? White lies are really something, they hide the truth yet sting a lot once uncovered... "I do not take people's opinion seriously, I take them as a mere reference", for those who followed my blog should know this very well and i kept repeating. And there are many people who do not even take in a little suggestion... Come on... she has a bad taste in everything...

Life is deceptive and full of trap doors, do becareful which one you open.

You are not a loser, until you lose it all

Losing someone does not mean you lost everything. Look around you, you still have it.

You still have yourself, your family and your friends.

I do not need any shit like her to get it through the day. I had learnt to love myself like nobody's business. yea... Narcissism is my new vibe. I mean, who is better than yourself?

2 of my friends broke up in a relationship, I broke mine up as well. gosh... this year is a sucky year... The first few week of breaking up is hellish, the lyrics of the song "When your're Gone" says it all... haha hear achy achy pain ~.~

Well, it is a good thing to find out that your other half is not suitable for you as earlier as possible. Maybe opposite side felt the same way and do not want to hurt you. It is better to know it before you have kids right? haha.. then it would be toooo late.

At my age, I am not ready for commitment. Even being with her, I do not know how far can I go. It is a waste of time being with her. Why do I even bother taking care of her? It's not my duty, and I regret doing so much for her. I am acting like not myself when with her.

I felt like a loser after breaking up with her. Got really frustrated... I ain't faking with myself, I am achingly hate two-timers... I live in a society full of spannars XD

I can really imagine what my future will be if I am still with her... Yea, you guessed correctly, I would become less awesome! She is my biggest burden...

Mama!! I have dumped my bad habit, I no longer check her profile =D Well, one of the reason is I quited Restaurant City... again LOL another is I do not care, anymore. It is not my life and not my style =D

~GOD BLESS THAT LUCKY BOY~

Good night and to my friends, good luck =D

Kit Kat vs Toothie

This is a sad story... So sad but true.

One day, my parents back from China. It is a tradition to buy lots and lots of CHOCOLATEs back from the airport due to some various reasons =x

One of them is Kit Kat... gosh.... Many she bought, chunks and chunks of kit kat piling up like a mountain ~.~ It's just like in my dream. Without any hesitation, I grab a bar and took a bite. Before I know it, lightning stroke my cute tooth. I thought that I was a goner, my life flashes before my eyes as soon as I found out that there is something wrong with my teeth !!!!! NO MORE CHOCOLATE???? HOW CAN THIS CALL LIFE, WITHOUT CHOCOLATE??!!!!

As time flies by, the pile of Kit Kat were gone... and I did not eat even one... I knew I need to meet the dentist, but I was too busy being lazy. Seeing the pile of gold vanished before my eyes, one by one... Come on, for those Kit Kat lovers, how can you have a break without it??!!!

Eventually, I went to the dentist. As usual, he is friendly and keep talks to himself when he is checking my teeth. I am so attracted to his working style as it resembles me XD He said I brushed my teeth too hard... Too much of a good thing might not be so good in the end.... And him + the receptionist keep remind / tease me that I am very punctual, 1 year 1 time dental appointment.... I should go check every half year. 

Come on dude, spare me, I have no gold nor time... If you open your clinic next door and give me free checkup, I will everyday go, honestly. 

Oh, before I end this, remember... never ever ever ever EVER ever ever... EVER buy normal or hard toothbrush. Soft will do. They will damage your gums badly. Trust me, I've been there and it is not a good memory to keep. 

For more information, please visit the nearest dentist or go to www.???.com to check out for more.

To my Old Man:

My old man... He is quite a character... He is a family dude... He is a genius... i think  =x

He curses at Internet all the time. Not that because of I am always facing my computer, but of something else. Last few days, I had a little chat with him. "Nowadays, working ain't as easy as it is used to be...", he said. Internet and technology has been growing rapidly, no question about it. With its advantages and conveniences no doubt it is everyone's best friend. However, if one wants to be successful in business, he/she has to master the art of "Internet-ing". The conversation goes on and on... We even debated till the extend that it almost became an arguement... 

One of the things he pointed out is, customers no longer listen to his advices and even questioned his knowledge. He said that customers nowadays trust more on information in the web than experienced senior worker such as him himself. I giggled... Frankly, me myself never trusted anything my lecturers nor people around me say. Well, everything that other people say can only be as reference, there is no 100% guarantee that everyone is correct. I mean, technology is growing rapidly, new tide will always come in the next day and we need to be well informed all the time.

I hated him all the time, used to.... Until the extend I wanted to run away and never come back. Well, I was still young that time. Until one day, I finally realized what he did for me were... were... well... for my sake? I finally come to a point that I forgived him and even better, I acknowledged him as the best pops anyone can wish for.

Recently, I started to admire him more and more. For my age.. well I am not that old, but I overcame many difficulties,  filled with joy, excitement(I faced my difficulties with excitement, do not ask me why =x), some are painful and unforgetable which scar me for life... If a boy like me knows so much, what of it for my old man? Whatever he said and suggested are gold, I will always treasure it, good or bad.

I can't say that I love him. I am a dude, like all dudes we often hide our emotions. He did this often as well, never told us how he felt and keep all the pain to himself, this is what my used mum to tell me. Once that I knew that and walk in his shoes(hypothetically) I felt his pain and come to an understanding. Pops, please don't hide it anymore, I am here to share the pain with you, neh?

Everytime he got angry, house became hell, there is no place to hide. After I become "partially" all grown up, I finally realised that there is no place like home =D Outside world... is waaaay more hellish... kiddos, trust me.. There are many types of people way beyond your imagination. Family, they are always there for you, even when they hate you a lot (most of the time).

I think this is enough, too much text do not make this an interesting article(many people are complaining) ~XD

For those people who curses at their family members, well, I have to admit, you have all the right to do so, and there are many extreme scenarios. I have seen a lot... However, often,what your parents told you to do  might not sound good but it is for your own good. Please, cherish them before it is too late.

Oh... before ending this naggy shit, Happy Birthday PoPs  ^^

Stalk pictures till shed tears?

Who am I stalking? Confidential ;P

Let's just say that I finally found the true distance between us. 

The path of growing up... The more I walk on it, the more pain I realised. For those who are following my blog, you are awesome! I faced both relationship + family disaster, not only I failed being a good boy boy, I failed being a good brother... Well, I do not think it's my fault, but who knows? We always did something wrong without realising.

Life has always been unfair, especially you are as awesome as I am. Everything does not go the way you planned. However, there is always choices and you can always create your own life, god gave us hands for reason(s) right? Choosing a harder path means you will face more challenges, at the same time you can become wiser. But what is the prize for doing so? I got burnt badly. I was severely mistreated. I forgive them for not taking me seriously, it's their lost anyways.
Oops... Out of topic... =x

I mean, we all face death any day soon, why should we always try our best while we can enjoy life to the fullest? Some may suggests that we have to strike a balance between fun and work. It is not as easy as it sounds. What about focusing? Focus on academic performance? Focus on family? Focus on..... It's a never ending dilemma.

                                      

So what is the distance between us? Well.... huge level gap(my apology for those who couldn't understand )

I guess the main problem is I do not even understand myself well. How can one know another while he/she don't even know him/herself ? Nobody cares what you think, never! when someone says that you failed, then you failed...

Does this mean that I need to upgrade myself? It is too soon for an overhaul, it's a customary to do this during new year eve =x 

Maybe, a little by little, change I shall...

For those who disrespected or disproved of me, well, you do not know what is coming at you =D

Whatever will be, will be and I will be extremely awesome as always !

No Merdeka this year?

Somehow this year, I do not feel the "Merdeka Moment". I do not see cars decorated in Jalur Gemilang or radio/TV advertising about Merdeka or promoting "1-Malaysia". Maybe it was just me... As you know I spent many time at home rotting and not that outgoing =x However, in Facebook I saw many posts regarding this matter.

At night, around 11.30pm, it is my tradition to turn on TV1,2,3, NTV7 or chanel 8 to tune in to merdeka events and fireworks ceremony. Every year, I will tune in to hear our Perdana Menteri's touching speech and some multi-cultural performance. However, for some reason, until 11.50, I do not see any on TV... Gosh.. what happened? Does all the channels think that broadcasting such events are waste of money?

I am a big fan of the concept "One-Malaysia" however, the Siti-Inshah-Mansor incident really took me by surprise. This has caused many uproars among Chinese and Malay. This incident even caught Namewee's attention. Haha, he did a little rap song about that incident and something about racist. However his video has been removed. 

“I am sad that the authorities have done nothing against the racist principal but instead focused their attention on me. I do not regret what I have done as I love my country and do not want a small group of people to stir problems,” he said.

Click here for more information.

Other than that, there are more videos on Youtube regarding racism in Malaysia. Why do Malay hates Chinese (or vice versa) that much? I did respect them for praying and during puasa, I even let them park in from of my gate. I have no issues for that. As a multi racial country, we should tolerate and respect each others. I mean, 53 years, we should be able to think maturely and rationally, neh~? Look at other country like US, I do not know it well cause I've never been there, Black and White can live as one. Even in Singapore, I didn't hear anything about racism from my buddy Naz.  Why can't we be more like them? Malaysia is famous for multi racial isn't it?

Luckily the next day(today), I can see some Merdeka actions broadcasted on TV =D It was is Bukit Jalil.... Gosh I am happy =D 

My apology if I said something wrong, please correct me if I did. 

To show my love and respect for Malaysia :

情为~何深

I agree, someone who can't even manage his own relationship has no right to answer this question. But what is it anyway? Is love expensive? Does being together happily consider as love? Does the wierd tingling feeling inside you when you saw him/her counts as love? Actually there is no absolute answer. Love is subjective and differs among individual.

Why do I bother to create this Wall Of Text? Everything started with the dream I had last night. It's about my ex.. Well if anyone really has the patient to read this and really wants to know, I might share it =x Bud guess the chances are slim haha...

        Although we broke up for almost a month, my heart still clings tight with her. Every night I think of her before going to bed. Every afternoon spam check her facebook and keep having urge to call or find her in person. Is this a temporarily side-effect of breaking up or it means more?

        No matter what the case is, it is too late to patch back because i did something really stupid and pissed her. To top it off, I do not think that she is the kind of girl who should be around me. Ironically, I still care about her and miss her a lot.  

Let's put this aside and back to the point. About love, this thing has many sides, can be brotherly love, love for family, love for yourself and others. Maybe this is a part of being a human and set us apart from all other things. Human is a fragile being, can be hurt physically, mentally and emotionally easily. Being imperfect is where we human are more superior than other beings in this world..(is it?) 

Can one live without love? The answer is obviously no! In fact, no one can live alone. Although I had lost her trust or "love", I still have my family and better yet, I have my BROTHERS! *sigh* 4% of my life and tons of money had lost. I sacrificed a lot for her. Not hoping for any repay but for her well being and happiness. 

        So here comes another controversy, does involving in a relationship need love to maintain or just being together happily is enough? So, the problem comes back, what is love? gosh... keep turning rounds... Well, from her, love can be related to how you feel about a person. I got a message from her saying she has no more feel to me. Is this a naive saying or an excuse to be excluded in a relationship? The answer to this question still lies with her. I did try to persue the answer, but made it worse and I got hurt BADLY. 

        She is very cute, in fact most of the girls are. Below is a short comic on what happen that day during breakup:

Thx Celia for sharing this with me =(

        Well, I did think of texting back, but somehow I did not. She suggested to separate for a while cause she is too tired from our relationship. From here, even a mentally disabled person could figure out that she is up to something. Being together for three long years, suddenly suggesting that for no reason... I suspect a lot to the extend that she is trying to hit on a guy in her campus.Maybe this is a little misunderstanding between us or I was too ignorant.

        At least, I know why my parents disprove me from having a relationship with her. They are protecting me all along. From this valueble experience I had came out with a stupid conclusion:

爱一个人请别太认真，

感情付出不是真心就会有结果，

付出越多就伤得越痛。

两个人在一起别愿天长地久，

人的心总一直在变，

活下来快乐就算吧~

        Screw this, I promised myself not to look back anymore. This is not the first time i broke up in a relationship nor having my heart shattered to pieces. I got betrayed by my own good friends before and those incidents do not bring such a big impact as this one. However, my case is very minute comparing with others, since divorce is getting popular..... So, should I find another replacement? Guess not... not until I found my own true meaning of 'love'. 

        No matter what the case is, she has left a huge void in my heart...

Peter Pan and Little Bitch

  Once upon a time, there lives an old man with his little bitch. An old man takes good care of that little bitch. Feed her well everyday, teach her how to behave and keep telling her that the world is full of deception. The old man is poor, despite of this, he still struggle to give the little bitch a good life. The old man had good hopes for the little bitch.

  One night, The old man is having his night shift as usual. Suddenly, someone climbed through the window. It startled the little bitch's sleep. It was Peter Pan(from NeverLand obviously) ! Peter Pan tells the little bitch:" Why are you locking yourself in this cage with that old hag? Come with me, I promise you youth and eternal happiness!" At first the little bitch rejected his offer, knowing that she is in debt for the old man.  

  Well, of cause, the little bitch followed Peter Pan and went to NeverLand after putting some thought into it.She left a small notice for the pity old man, it reads:

"  Dear Old Man:

         I am eternally grateful for your deeds and I will never forget it. Thank you for raising me up. If you were reading this, I am already long gone. I went to somewhere to pursue something greater. "

   The old man came back from his night shift, after reading this notice, he broke down to tears. 

  So... what happen to the little bitch after that? Who give a shit to that little bitch? What about the pity old man? Well, the old man has lost his reason to live since that little bitch was his whole world. He suicide by jumping into a river after that and the little bitch live happily ever after

~THE END~